Dream Journal

1-29-16

It's my first day as a police academy cadet. I'm rushing around because I'm late. Putting the first part of my uniform on, I realize that the torso of my denim halter jumpsuit is too small, forcing me to stand slightly bent over to accommodate my neck in the halter strap. The second part of the uniform is a denim shirt that tucks into the jumpsuit. I'm living in my parents' house and running around yelling at my mom "WHERE'S MY BELT!? WHERE'S MY GUN!?"

I keep feeling incredibly behind and stressed because I'm so late. They drive me to the police station, but I can't find the correct entrance. I walk all around the building trying to find where to enter, and when I finally find a door that will open, I'm greeted Wal-Mart style by  small woman and it appears I am in a food court. She gives me directions to where I'm supposed to be, and I'm still feeling panicked for having to arrive late.

When I speak to my commanding officer, he treats me condescendingly and I take it as an affront to the fact that I'm a woman. No other police cadets are wearing their uniforms, and the commanding officer tells me I can wear regular clothes for the rest of the week's training sessions.

10-20-15

I sneak out of my parents' home (my childhood home) to go to my ex-boyfriend's house just next door. It's early morning - 2 or 3 am - and I'm wearing leggings and a long-sleeve pajama t-shirt. We are in his bedroom talking, and he's saying lovely things to me. We talk about old times and I start to feel like I miss him. I'm looking into his eyes and enjoying his smile; we are close together. Later our friend Susan comes over too and we all sit in his bedroom chatting. I'm laying on the floor. His mom comes into the room and asks the girls to leave. I'm embarrassed but not too badly because we weren't doing anything particularly exciting. I'm embarrassed because his mom really liked me when we were dating, and now I'm not sure what she thinks of me.

Jump to a morning scene - my dad and I are at breakfast at the ex's house with his brother and mom. My dad and his mom are chatting like old friends, and I'm struggling to comprehend my feelings. I miss him, but the relationship ended badly. I'm torn between the butterfly feelings of young love, and all the hurt he caused during those years we were together.

9-24-14

I'm in  a pickup with my ex-boyfriend E and some other person. There is some sort of issue and we must drive off a cliff into a body of water. It seems like the ocean to me. Once we hit the water, I know I must wait to open the door so that the pressure inside the vehicle can equalize. After I'm out of the water, I swim to E. I snuggle against him and wrap my arms and legs around him and he carries me out of the water. I thank him a bunch of times, and kiss him on the cheek. After we are safe, I start thinking about why I'm having feelings for him, and that it's probably not a good thing to feel that way since I'm married. We separate and I'm left thinking that I need to arrange a meeting with E to talk about what it all means.

10-27-13

It's pitch black at night, and I'm in the ocean with someone else. I know who they are but I don't know their name. We've been swimming or scuba diving, because I'm wearing a wetsuit.

We are swimming next to a very large boat, and it's time to get back on the boat. My fellow swimmer and I are each carrying a small hook ladders, I'm not sure why or where they came from, because they aren't long enough to reach the side of the boat. Someone lowers a small rope ladder and the other person starts to climb up. They can't carry their ladder, though, so they hand it to me. I'm now treading water with two ladders and they are becoming heavy.

I'm very nervous. Not scared, but I can feel myself getting more and more anxious. I feel something swim behind me and brush my back; I look to my left and a giant white snake is skimming the top of the water. The water from below me is barely illuminated, like by a nightlight. I can see an enormous shadow swimming below, it's a whale. The whale lets out a huge moan, and everything feels like it is vibrating. I begin to be more anxious and want to go up the ladder.

It's stil very dark, except for the nightlight-water, and I hear my dog bark in the distance. I'm immediately alarmed that he is trying to swim, because he is small and I know he doesn't like water. I look to the right and see him in an inflatable lifeboat. The rope ladder from the large boat descends again and I coax my dog into the water to swim to me. I ditch the other two ladders I was carrying and let them sink into the ocean. I start to climb the ladder with my dog.

4-23-12

I'm on a boat in the ocean. I jump off and swim away. I see dolphins in the water.

I come to an island cove. I see a black man in the cave. Two dogs jump off of the rocks into the water. The man swims to me to help me onto the shore. He is friendly and smiling. He tells me where I am, apparently a German-speaking island. He has his arms wrapped around me. He then takes out a ring with a venom-tipped shark tooth and tries to cut my leg with it. I wriggle free and run to the nearest town.

It's nighttime and people are out and about going to the shops and restaurants. I don't speak any German, but I find an American couple on vacation and ask them for help. They aren't interested in helping me. I see the man from the cove down the street - he's coming after me. I start running through the crowds and start suspecting that everyone is working with this man to get me.

A stranger nods his head toward a doorway - I don't know if I should trust him, but I go in anyway. There are young men in the shop - none of them looking very friendly. I'm taken to a back room and introduced to the owner - a young man wearing an Iowa t-shirt. He tells me he went to Iowa and I tell him about my time at Drake. I hug him because I know I can trust him and he tells me that he will keep me safe.

I wake up.

Possible interpretation from Dreammoods.com

Boat
To dream that you are in or see a boat signifies your ability to cope with and express your emotions. Pay particular attention to the condition and state of the waters, whether it is calm or violent, clear or murky, etc. Are you "smooth sailing"? Alternatively, you may be ready to confront your subconscious and unknown aspects of yourself. The dream could be telling you not to rock the boat and to stay out of harm's way. To dream that you are trying to jump off a boat suggests that you want to confront those difficult emotions and approach your problems head on.

Swimming
To dream that you are swimming suggests that you are exploring aspects of your subconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support.

Dolphins
To see a dolphin in your dream symbolizes spiritual guidance, intellect, mental attributes and emotional trust. The dream is usually an inspirational one, encouraging you to utilize your mind to its capacity and move upward in life. Alternatively, it suggests that a line of communication has been established between the conscious and subconscious aspects of yourself. Dolphins represent your willingness and ability to explore and navigate through your emotions.

Island
To see or dream that you are on an island signifies ease, relaxation and comfort.The dream is telling you that you need a vacation and escape the stresses in your life. It is time for some solitude

Man
To see a man in your dream denotes the aspect of yourself that is assertive, rational, aggressive, and/or competitive. Perhaps you need to incorporate these aspects into your own character. If the man is known to you, then the dream may reflect you feelings and concerns you have about him.

If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, then it suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality. It may also highlight your desires to be in a relationship and your image of the ideal man.

Chase
To dream that you are being chased signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are chased by an animal represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

Hugging
To dream that you are hugging someone symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

4-17-12

I'm in our apartment, but there are lots of people I don't know there for a photo shoot. I go into the bathroom and find that everyone has been going #2 in there and not flushing, so the toilet is overflowing with....you know what.

Possible interpretation from Dreammoods.com:

Feces
To see or come in contact with feces signifies aspects of yourself that are dirty and negative and which you believe to be undesirable and repulsive. You need to acknowledge and express these feelings, even though it may be shameful. Release the negativity in your life. Alternatively, it may also refer to someone who is anal retentive.

February 2012

Some details from this dream just came flooding back to me, but I'm not positive when I dreamed it.

I'm driving around an apartment complex and finally find the building I'm looking for. An old college acquaintence is letting us stay in her cute and very clean apartment for some reason. I talk to her about her upcoming wedding plans and we just chit chat.

 

 

2-3-12

I'm sitting in front of an entertainment center and I can see that the electrical equipment is starting to smoke. I tell Daniel that I see smoke and he doesn't believe me. Then it catches on fire and I start trying to put it out. The flames move from one part of the electrical equipment to another and I can't ever put the fire out. Then the entire entertainment center bursts into flames.

Possible interpretation from Dreammoods.com:

Smoke
To see smoke in your dream indicates some sort of trouble that is entering your life. You are suffering from confusion and anxiety.

Burning
To see something burning in your dream indicates that you are experiencing some intense emotions and/or passionate sexual feelings. There is some situation or issue that you can no longer avoid and ignore. Alternatively, it may suggest that you need to take time off for yourself and relax. Perhaps you are you feeling "burned out" or "burned up".

1-31-12

I'm working with one of Dan's friends to throw a surprise party. Somehow Dan finds out about the party and is mad. We then plan to go to a basketball game but first have to stop at a party where everyone is smoking pot. Two girls from my high school are there (I don't know who they are, I just know they are from high school) and are snotty to me.

Possible interpretation from Dreammoods.com:

Marijuana
To dream that you are using marijuana implies that you are trying to escape reality. Perhaps you are trying to numb some emotional pain.

Party
To dream that you are at a party suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself.

11-4-11

I am vacuuming the house. I have Dan move a piece of furniture so I can vacuum under it. A huge spider is living under the couch. In my dream, I know that it weighs five pounds. I get a can of "bug dust" and start to shake this bug-killing dust at the spider. It finally dies.

Possible interpretation from Dreammoods.com:

Spiders
To see a spider in your dream indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or perhaps you want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power or an overbearing mother figure in your life. Alternatively, a spider refers to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider in your dream, then it symbolizes misfortune and bad luck.

Vacuum
To dream that you are vacuuming signifies a loss of control. You feel that you are being sucked up by some problem. Alternatively, the dream represents your desires to keep up appearances. Things may look fine on the surface, but some problem still persists underneath.